Letting Go, Trusting, & Being Happy.

Happy first month to me officially moving to South Korea.



“Nothing lasts forever.”

Not the good, nor the bad, and I absolutely know that.

And so the most beautiful thing, is being awake and alive enough to know that although I don’t know how long it’ll last, I know very well, with all my being, that in this very moment, I am not short of anything.

You may heal from pain, you may make it out of dark days, but the memory of the suffering and pain will always remain.

And to make it to a day, where it is something you remember, because you consecutively wake up every morning, no longer praying to be free, but in disbelief at just how happy you are; how blessed, how fortunate, and how incredible life is at the moment.

Right now, in this moment, I am not short of anything.

I am not short of healing. Still healing, but faithful in knowing I am putting my pieces together beautifully even if I don’t yet know the full picture. 

I am not short of all the lessons I need. Still learning, learning that in the presence of every person who discomforts or hurts me, is a teacher to be seen. To nurture where I fall short; to encourage where I excel. When I need to say “I’m sorry,” or “Help me, I am hurt.” To reflect the way I love; to display the depth I love; to test my ability to love, even if it means letting the ones I love go. And letting them go with love; letting them find happiness with others, letting them receive the love I once gave. To love them selflessly.

I am not short of happiness for others. I am not short of the butterflies I feel when I see someone succeed, succeed in the success that was meant for them. The butterflies when someone who has been utterly shattered, meets the perfect love they’ve always deserved. When childhood friends, find the people who fit the new versions of them better. When hard workers have finally reached the acknowledgement they deserve, or when lost souls have finally found their footing. When people who have hurt you, have found peace.

I am not short of love. Love from my family who cheer at my every milestone, who always keep me grounded but free; reminding me that home will always be there as I greet the world. Love from an amazing partner, who challenges all my shortcomings to grow, lifts all my strengths to strive, and never falls short of being my number one companion even being seas apart. Friends who are growing as I grow, rooting for each other side by side. A workplace of beaming love and adoration for me; the tough days that are rewarded with warm feelings. 

I am absolutely not short of anything. There is nothing more I could ask of. There are not answers I am constantly seeking, nor a status, a definite point or place I am trying to reach. There is no longer a race I am trying to run. And for the first time in life, I have all the time in the world, to just let things come to me, as they are meant to be.

Maybe this is happiness, and maybe happiness is letting go, and trusting that all will follow. 

“What is meant for you will never miss you, what missed you, was never meant for you. Everything happens for a reason.”

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2 Comments

  1. Baggio Lo

    It’s hard to let go and it’s hard to trust. In the alchemist by Paulo Coelo they said, “The secret of happiness is to see all the marvels of the world and still remember the drops of oil on the teaspoon.” How do you enjoy life, but also remain true to purpose or find purpose? Isn’t that quite a contradiction. It took me a long time but i’ve found my own answer to this, which might not be the same as everyone else’s, but from a very real standpoint from one who still needs to understand and learn balance in my life, the answer i’ve come to is “Loving the process”. Yes loving the process for what it is and as a whole; struggle and all, which is not at all the same as purely enjoying life, the enjoyment comes from the struggle itself.

    A person asked, “How are you Buddhist, but a businessman at the same time? Buddhism is the practice of letting go of material and worldly desires, yet business is all about the obtainment of materialism and worldly desires” The businessman replied, “You can desire. But you just can’t be attached to desire. It’s about living in the moment and enjoying the attempt to realize your ideas, while at the same time letting go of the need for a positive outcome.”

    I hope you find your balance in life. Much rather, create your own balance and define it for yourself. Much love <3.

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    1. I couldn’t have said it better. ❤ Thank you for sharing.

      And that is also why I love Buddhist values and philosophies.

      It took a long time for me to define balance for myself too, still am. Balance is a long process, and one that I've finally come to realize is not linear. It comes and goes, and you are thrown off balance when comfort and routine settles in, to find a new balance again. It kind of builds us to be stronger and quicker at recovering. Like physical training, it is not how hard or fast you can do things, it is how quickly and well you can recover that measure health.

      Living life unattached, but present, grateful, and deeply reflective. ❤

      Sending so much love ❤

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